I wish to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this chance to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for initially in an extended while, I do not feel alone.
Element of me wanted to remain longer, but beneath that desire was the idea that I could be doing this for the incorrect reason; as a means to prevent my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I’d had any insights. What I’m about to share was not yet clear during those times; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never needs to have told you, never needs to have let you see inside. Don’t are interested troubling your brain, won’t you allow it be?” This confused me as I really could not consider something that I’d said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that probably the most prominent fear a course in miracles I’d in visiting the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere using its residents’peace of mind, by just my presence alone. This belief that I really could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for quite some time, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness immediately after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his true videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
You can find other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t consider them right now.